Today’s entry is very sentimental. This will mark my last post until next semester. I hope what I have written thus far has encouraged most and if not, inspired many. I have learned alot about myself since this Covid-19 situation. I hope you have learned alot about yourself as well. There have been many distractions and obstacles put in my way. But I am here to say, I have overcome them. I am at the finish line awaiting the results that I have desperately worked so hard for. When you have given your all, what else is left to give? My emotions have been all over the place. I have cried many tears. I have had moments of sadness that I could not explain to anyone because I felt they would not understand. I learned to and how to cope when resources aren’t available. Finishing the semester is what has been on my mind since the beginning of this week. How I do will tell me if I belong in college or not. I know I am an intelligent woman. I was wise to make the decision to come back to college. My mindset has changed since 5 years ago. 5 years ago is what haunts me and motivates me to take all of this seriously and to warn others about it if they don’t get serious. Whatever the outcome is, I know that God is good all the time!
Georgia is officially open again. Yet I still do not trust what is happening in the government of this state. I have this feeling and let me tell you that this is not a good feeling at all. My Aunt, Jerlene Farmer of Carrollton stated, “They do not care for us. They are trying to kill us one by one.” My aunt is at high risk for this virus because she is diabetic. Diabetes runs within my family bloodline. It has been awhile since I have seen most of my family since being home. I have not seen my own mother since being home. I talk to her on the phone. I pray from a distance that she is safe through all of this. My other aunt, Brenda Boyd is a special needs teacher in the Carrollton City Schools district. As a teacher, she is not pleased at what is happening around her, and does not have high hopes for the future of Georgia. “I don’t see us going back to school in August like we are supposed to. I just don’t see it. We don’t have the stuff that we really need for the children to keep them protected, It’s really not just the children but it’s us adults that have to be protected too.” Mrs. Boyd is also a diabetic as well and remains very cautious of the symptoms around her. “I really have to look after myself and take care of myself. If i go out, i have to be covered. I catch myself at home sitting with a mask on. I constantly think about what might happen to me. I may die just sitting at home, minding my own business.”
Like other Georgians, Mrs. Boyd is not pleased at what is happening on the steps of the state capitol. “I’m not too happy with Governor (Brian) Kemp at this point. He has opened up really too soon. He should have waited a little longer at least till the end of this month. This stuff is spreading and the people are dying every minute. In the state of Georgia, we are up to 30,000 cases now and the hospitals are full. They do not have room for everybody. The medical personnel are exhausted because they are constantly having to work. It is not fair.”
I do not know what the future holds for the state of Georgia. I believe that we must stay current in prayers for our neighbors to the left and right. I pray that this virus that the devil has brought across our land will leave. When it does leave, I pray that the world will have made a beautiful change and one for the best. This is something that my soul yearns for. We have got to stay positive and remain in prayer and faith. Emanuel! The Lord is with us!